"Any area of your life that does not glisten with hope is under the influence of a lie"-Steve Backlund.
After a very honest convo with my roomie and a healthy dose of truth from her we came to the conclusion that some of the things we are going after that are really close to our hearts have to be grounded in right belief systems. In the course of my convo with her, we uncovered a faulty belief system in my thinking. After feeling like my hope level was bouncing up and down and spinning all over the place so that I couldn’t keep track of it, I realised that my feelings of powerlessness were based on the fact that I was allowing circumstances and people to dictate my hope level. But the truth is I set my hope level based on the thoughts I think. The reality is that regardless of what is happening in my circumstances or in the relationships around me....God is bigger and able to meet me where I am at especially as I cultivate and operate out of a renewed mind. So its the practice and execution of renewed thinking that sets the tone for my hope, which then in turn influences my atmosphere, circumstances and relationships.
Vulnerable moment: I am not excited about this whole online thing....but I am doing it in response to His invitation to take risk and to learn how to be powerful in the midst of what feels like limited options or opportunity. At time’s I’ve struggled with feeling like this is a last resort kind of deal (cue laughter now-thats a lie!) but the reality is my hope is in God and His unswerving goodness and faithfulness to meet me where I am at and to fulfill His promises. I’ve had a bit of a propensity to stick all my eggs in one basket when it pertains to a particular situation or person....but the issue that’s really at hand with this is a belief system. When I would do that, I realised that I was actually operating out of a wrong mindset where I was hope impoverished. I was reacting to a blatant lack of His hope....and trying to take matters into my own hands to produce a certain result because it appeared that this was the only option available to me or that if I didn't put all my eggs in this basket it wouldn’t work out. And because God wasn’t demonstrating/manifesting His goodness (in my faulty perception) in this area of my life, so it called for me to take action into my own hands. (ugh, I want to throw up!) Again, another lie. Ha ha ha.
So I refuse to let man or circumstance to set my hope level....I am the one who dictates it! And the truth is, even when it feels like I am living in the land of starts and stops, things happening and then pausing, and options and opportunities appearing to be in lack....God is bigger than all of that and it’s EASY for Him to bring options and opportunities my way and to cause my dreams to be realised.
He is more committed to my dreams and desires than I am-He is that good. And He never ceases to be good even on this journey to find love. Because that was the lie I was believing-He is good in every other area of my life except this one. But that’s just not true. He is ALWAYS good. And He is better than I think He is.
