Transition

Oh transition....I am growing wearisome of that word. but never has it been more fitting. sigh.

Typically, I'm the plan ahead type...BUT what a funny season it has been of it being the time of the up in the air and last minute and unexpecteds. And God showing up in the eleventh hour with an entourage of ridiculous goodness.

My roommate heads north this week. I have no idea whether I am staying in this place or moving into somewhere new. The thought of moving is not inspiring. Yet somehow the status quo seems strangely unappealing too.

It would be lovely to have a sense of the next step...but I don't. So for now in the midst of transition, uncertainty and unknowns...I am following peace.

I know there is a sweetness to be found in every season... and every now and then I catch glimpses of it. but not going to lie. it would be nice to know the next step instead of having just enough light for the step i am on.

I've been thinking...what is it in the human spirit that as we press in for breakthrough and then experience it in specific ways, that can at times cause us to grow dissatisfied with what we've just tasted and cause us to hunger deeply for even more or greater breakthrough? i think its both dangerous and yet commendable. truth in tension.

I think the rain has turned my thoughts melancholy. Something that a good nights sleep should be able to remedy.

Simple Pleasures

I really enjoy life a lot.

I had several meetings today and to do lists to accomplish. But in between all those things and even in the midst of them, I am learning to savor each moment. Even the seemingly small meaningless ones we all have when we are driving in the car, windows rolled down, sun beating in, wind messing up your hair, music blaring...you know, the kind where you just get to pause and savor the goodness of that moment. Because in that moment another wave of thankfulness hits your heart as you experience His fullness and goodness surrounding you and responding to you in every and any situation. Life has been so fast paced the last several weeks, that in all honesty, I've bypassed some of these moments, much to my own disappointment.

As things have quieted, its been nice to reacquaint myself with the wee moments and to tap into the joy of simple pleasures like driving in your car with your windows rolled down and your fave song blaring from the sound system where another revelation of His goodness floods your being. Or like getting up extra early, brewing a cuppa to go, hopping in the car, in order to sit on the dock (aka my happy place) whilst the quiet is still lingering, just to hear Him and be. His voice is on the waters.

Lately, its been the simple things that have been so life giving to me. And I think there is something really lovely about that. If you can't have joy in the small things, then how can you celebrate the large?

I have such a rich life. And I am so thankful that I get to live it.

Baal Perazim-God of the breakthrough.

Its May already! And almost the end of it.

I graduated Second Year....and a ton of other things since my last post.

There's so much I could say, but for the sake of brevity...I will sum up my second year experience as one phrase: Baal Perazim. God of the breakthrough. That's the most prominent way He has shown Himself to me in this time.

Second year, for me, has been one of such immense personal breakthrough. For the sake of discretion and time, I won't go into all the details of breakthrough...but the goals I wrote down for what I wanted to see established, have for the most part, manifested. He has broken through for me time and time again. And especially strongly when there have been mountains of opposition or challenge-my health and car issues being some of the most obvious. But sometimes, its the subtleties, the little things, the unobtrusives that are so easily overlooked, that signify such significant change-my heart being one of them. I've been wrecked beyond what I thought was possible. I've been restored to something bigger than I ever dreamed.

So I end this entry with this: I love ministry. I love life. I love Love. I love the church.

If you knew me, you would understand the level of healing, break through and restoration He has brought to me these last 2 years. When I left Scotland, I vowed in my heart, to never do ministry again, I was so burned out. Yet, 2 years on...behold, He makes ALL things new. He has broken through. And continues to come to me as Baal Perazim. My God of my breakthrough.

I release my breakthrough over you-family, car, finances, health, favor, healthy relationships, love for life....take it all. You were made to taste, see, hear, smell, experience, know, live the goodness of God in the here and now.

FYI: 2 Sam 5:20

And David came to Baal-perazim, and David defeated them there. And he said, “The Lord has burst through my enemies before me like a bursting flood.” Therefore the name of that place is called Baal-perazim.
[1] 5:20 Baal-perazim means lord of bursting through